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Haskel Chua
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NYP SIDM DET'03 of class 2010
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If life has an ENCORE, how would you live it?
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THE NIHILIST
Haskel Chua
18 and counting
PHS Graduate Class of 4G'09
NYP SIDM DET'03 of class 2010
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Maneuver
Is the life we MANEUVER the best we could ?
Alright im having a bad day today but i feel i should update something before the new year...the next update will come around next monday or tue so enjoy this last post of the year. Oh right and please read the disclaimer thanks
Disclaimer: The series of Untold is purely fictional and is totally made up for anyone whose mind ain't processing right or skipped my first post regarding writing a FICTIONAL story. Any resemblance to living or dead is purely coincidental and any attempt to insult or sue me based on the story will not be entertained and tolerated.
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The Storm(Cold War)
SO why am I here? I should really ask them that. It was suppose to be a date between she and "Mr Popular" and I have to be dragged into it. This is totally absurd by my standards. I shall consult them on why I am dragged into this cold and intense date.
Oh. Apparently both of them has issues to sort out with one another, and I have to be the middle-man to help them. And of cause it concerns me as well. Great. What a perfect afternoon to waste. I could have used the afternoon to hang out with the crew and go for a delicious dinner at the newly opened open-aired restaurant. I guess I have to help them sort out their problems fast if I were to have the evening to myself.
Alright, so the issue is that he thinks she has feelings for another guy, which is most possibly me by his description of "concerning me", and is not committed to the relationship. This is really making me uncomfortable. She, on the other hand, thinks that this is technically not a relationship and should not be treated too serious, and should be treated more like testing out the interaction with one another, a step to decide on whether a relationship is possible. I didn't know she treats him like this, hopefully I am not treated like that.
The atmosphere is getting colder, and it is making me very uncomfortable sitting here looking at both of them.How am I suppose to solve this impartially.On one hand he is one of my better male friends and business partner. On the other, she is someone I have feelings for and had been friends for a considerable amount of time. This is giving me a rather bad headache. I shall trust my gut instinct and tell them what I can concoct within this small time period.
The decision would be that she treats him with more respect and tells him if she is not interested with him. He will have to be less invasive on her privacy and treats her with equal respect. I hope this might help them to iron out the problem, and end this pointless argument.
"Both of you are my good friends and I hope you two understood what I have just said." I followed up with the solution.
"You know what, you are no help at all, you should have persuaded her to give up and come with me, not giving me a useless advice." He said with a rather unhappy look.
"I cannot believe you said that, you disappoint me."She said as she gestured for me to leave.
The Decision(After effects)
So should I or should I not? It's been several days and I am still stuck with this thought. Damn him, he's so popular yet he still took a liking to her. However, he is after all my friend and business partner, so I am obliged to do him such a favor. What a weird position I am in now. Maybe some red wine to help out with the dilemma. Oh a message from him, seems like he wants to ask her out soon. I guess delaying won't make a difference, I shall give him her number. I hope she don't mind though, I shall drop her a message as well. Tonight's gonna be a long night for me I guess.
Well, its been several days since "Mr Popular" has her number. I should ask him if he had asked her out. "...". Wow, the date seemed to pass very well, I guess I should be happy for them. I shall fish some information from her about "Mr Popular".
She seemed to have a rather good impression of him. I guess this is common as he is rather popular among the ladies. Even more so when he speaks. Time to get more saucy information from her. Her message seemed to come rather late, as if she had been thinking about it rather seriously. However, the message did not specify whether or not she is considering him. It;s time to get serious, time to call her.
"So, after thinking through it, are you and him going on a more serious relationship?" I asked after the rather long greeting we had.
"I don't know, I am torn in between a dilemma now." She said with a rather weird voice.
Merry Christmas EVERYONE! A update cuse im bored!
so monday and tuesday went to pool with hao weng wilfred and keegen...yeah tats it...went pool LOL...oh btw wilfred and keegen is always late....PLS BE ON TIME THANKS
Thur was suppose to be 6 ach gathering but all of them dont wanna come :(....so its the 4 of us again..went to watch meet the parents:little fockers...the show is funny as hell...worth the ticket money! its a comedy with a heartwarming side...so go watch it i give it 8.5 stars!
ytd is christmas eve! i went out with guo yan, wei lun, zhi hui and bing cheng and went to eat sakae sushi! we wanted to go for sakura buffet but it was full..eventually we went to the cpf building and ate til 9+...then we went for pool again...played till 12+..then went to walk orchard plus starbucks! by the time i reach yishun was 2+...watched bc ate his supper and go home...went to slp at 4....
and now im at my cousins house enjoying a great dinner and thier company... oh and blogging here cuse my cousin is playing...and the adults are talking stuff i aint interested...so yeah
song of the week:倪安東 - 散場的擁抱
yes a chinese song...but its still a nice song...by the same singer as last wk...enjoy the song and the sad mv!
so tats it..oh the tagboard is under attack...help? lol...part 5 of the story coming up!
"Emotions can lead to utter destruction."-TheNihilist
The Introduce (New storm)
A great La Chic Martinique I am tasting tonight. It's the guys night out, I am glad I get to have this opportunity to have this night out with them. They are great friends and I should someday get to tell them that. Well, I shall go for a round or two of pool with them.
On, "Mr Clubber" is my opponent. I shall pose him a friendly challenge, maybe a round of drink for everyone? "..." A satisfying match, and a free drink as well.
Oh, a message by her. She's coming down now to pick up her keys. One has to wonder how did she get into her apartment yesterday.Apparently, I found it in my car after I left her. She is coming over now, I guess introducing her to the crew would not be a bad idea. Moreover, she already know a few of them.
Oh she's here, time for the good old introduction, "My Girlfriend". "..." . Looking at everyone's shock face just cracks me up. She seems to fit in very well, making it very convenient. Alright, a round of pool with her and "Mr Clubber", another round of drinks on her winning i guess.
Woah, what a night. I cannot believe I had so much drinks and fun. She seems to have a lot of fun as well, right now a bit tipsy as i walk her to the apartment again. Oh she leaves with a room mate. No wonder she could get in yesterday. Well I shall go back to my abode and rest as well.
Oh a phone call. Its "Mr Popular" from the crew. "...." . He's asking me to meet-up right after the party we had. This is weird but I shall agree.
"Hey so what's up? Did you forget to tell me something important about our investments?"I said as I got out of my car.
"No, its just that the girl you brought in today was rather cute, so can you pass me her number? he said with a sneered smile on his face.
The Restart(All's new)
Should I drop her a message? This thought went by me for several days now. So should I or should I not? I guess asking her out for a movie should be fine. I should do it now since I might back-out later.
Great. She replied within minutes that she would enjoy a movie. Just the two of us. Lets go check out what movie there is. "...." . A romantic-action movie. At least I would not feel bored watching it with her. Yawning in front of her is a serious blunder to do. I can't wait for the movie.
7. She seems to be on time, coming out of the building. She is rather pretty today, I should take this opportunity to praise her. She seems rather comfortable sitting right beside me as I drive. Tonight just started out to be rather well.
Oh just in time for the movie. I should pick up some popcorn just in case it gets awkward. She seems to have a dislike to it. I guess no popcorn then. Oh, our seats are taken by another couple, I should ask them politely. Oh they are her friends. I cannot believe what a coincidence this was. She seems to be rather flustered as she fixed that we are not a couple to them. I guess she wants to leave her options open.
The movie was rather fine unlike what I have imagined. She seems to be rather calm throughout and is as of now. I should have been more focused inside the theater. Nevertheless, its a good transition to the dinner. The restaurant serves rather appealing steak, I hope she will enjoy that as well.
She ordered a pasta served with codfish. I guess she don't have an appetite for steak. I shall order a steak then. Oh right red wine is a must as well, it will let the dinner to be less tense. She seems to like the food, and seems rather relax as she talk about her daily mundane stuff she is going through. I should try to provide her with constructive comments, maybe pop in a joke or two.
She seemed to have enjoyed the dinner. I shall send her home now since its getting rather late. I do hope I left her a rather good impression and that we could have another movie or dinner again. I guess I should accompany her up to the apartment she lives in. Oh she seems to be tugging me to follow her into the apartment.
"Its getting late, I should not be bothering you or anyone leaving in that apartment.I do hope you enjoyed yourself."-I said as I resist her tugging towards her apartment.
"Alright, I really enjoyed myself today."-She said as she released my hand gently.
So heres a very depressing post to log today..
so hao weng ask for pool..so i agree..wilfred came...and Lydia came...with his guy and bro...the depressing thing is not tat i miss her or wat...but is the fact tat i felt totally nothing...same as when my grandfather died...ppl feel sad...regret..maybe even rage...i felt...nothing...not emptiness but nothing...it seems as if my emotions mechanism is back up...i felt like tis...actually till now...not relly feeling anyting...so im depressed tat im actually such a kind of person...practically an empty shell inside...lets have a breakdown
rage-nvr relly felt rage be4, any anger or anyting just gulp down...overtime...thres it just feels "like that lor"...
sadness/grieve- up to now...nvr felt sad as well...above mentioned tat my grandfather died..i felt..nothing...
happiness- i may laugh/enjoy the day...but real happiness has nvr struck me...
well truth to be told...maybe i felt a little of those when i was still close with her..the dropping of the defensive "wall" and the unlocking of the mechanism seems to be able to work up my emotions..but im back up and running...i just feel nothing...suddenly nihilism seems very suited to me...
The Crumble (Light's Out)
Half a Year just went past with a blink of an eye. I cannot believe how busy I was. Well at least I did enjoy the last couple of times we went out. I enjoyed much of their laughter and the pool. It helped us to understand each other better, be it being a "clubber" or just another girl.
Oh a phone call. "..." . Alright a great timing he called. A break at the chalet and the beach would be very beneficial to me now. I should ask them whether they are attending.It seems like they are rather busy, but they do not want to forgo such a tempting weekend. I shall check up with them a few days later i guess.
They did manage to free up their weekend. Great, I shall ask "Mr.Clubber" to meet up since we live a couple of streets away. I should go and pack some clothes, and of course some beach-wear.
Another few days passed and I managed to survive for this weekend I hoped for. Onto the chalet and the beach. I wanted to drive but he offered me a ride so I shall follow along. Oh shes in the ride as well. What a nice start to the holiday. This could be the ride that I will not forget.
The first day went by with a blast. I can't believe time went past even faster here. The beach was awesome, we had loads of fun playing beach volleyball. The girls were cute too. With the dinner finishing a while now, I can have some peace and quiet to chill out and think. I should grab some sleep and enjoy tomorrow. Maybe after another glass of the great red wine I am holding. Oh she's leaving with her friends. I guess I should go say good night and good bye.
Morning. The sleep was rather comfortable despite squeezing with the rest of the guys. The girls on the other hand should have a rather appealing sleep, since their room are rather empty. Time to grab some breakfast. The nearby cafe should be rather appealing to our tastes, and is relatively affordable as well. Lets see what the others say about it.
We decided and settled for the cafe. As of now, I am finishing my crepe. Its rather exquisite in compare with its price. I should go and talk to the owner and chef of this place, maybe they would consider earning extra cash. Oh shes here. Shes seems a little upset for some reason. Did something happen to her friends? or did she just drank too much? All this speculation and no answer, I should go talk to her.
She managed to pull me aside from the rest, right into a convenience store. She seems a little teary. "...". Oh my, I cannot believe what I have just heard. She must be feeling devastated now. How should I go about comforting her? This is the first time I have been expose to such a tragic event. She should not have went off with her friends. I believed sticking with her right now would be a good idea.
The rest of the afternoon became very weird. I sat there with her, chilling out. The rest on the other hand were too tired to do anything but slack around and play some board games or watch some tv. Right now, we are having dinner at the same place this morning. The view's wonderful and she seems to like it as well. The menu they have for dinner is extensive and the steak tastes perfect. The only thing that is boggling me, however, is what I have heard in the afternoon. I wonder what she is feeling now.
Finishing the dinner, the rest of the crew decided to go to the beach for the wonderful breeze. I sat by on the cooling sand, with a bottle of wine by my side. She came by and sat beside me.
"Some wine and a nice breeze to calm down? Are you feeling alright?" I asked while holding the wine glass.
"With you, I should be fine."She said, almost tearing up her eyes.
12.34! As i started to write tis blog post...so heres wat happened this wk!
TUESDAY! Its CHAN WEI's Birthday! yay! celebration!so we went out after our morning classes...went to have dinner at sakae in ION orchard with edwin,zac matthew,hong jie and fu kuan...everyone was there! after tat we went on a L.A.N spree..played call of duty black ops and cs for hrs...erm round 2+ hrs....at night we went to just acia to camp! we were too full for dinner so we ordered the dumpling set....then enjoyed the drinks and ice-cream...beside us was another guy having his bdae! LOL wat timing! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN CHAN WEI!
thur, i went to watch tron:legacy with bing cheng, zi zhao,wei lun, royce,heng le and guo yan....we went to eat manhattan be4 we went for the movies...the show was not bad...great concept...nice effects...just a little geeky since its based on a game...but with Olivia Wilde, everyting is less geeky :p...its a movie tats worth its money but not relly extrodinary...i guess my hopes were too high? i give it 7.5 /10 stars!
ytd i went to hav dinner with chan wei and edwin at orchard...walked around, had an eye feast and ate at subway...was a typical friday...the lights at orchard are sweet though...
song of the week:倪安東 - Sorry That I Loved You
yes a chinese singer, i rarely listen to chinese singers but this song caught my attention...its a sad song...but its very meaningful as well...so listen to it..
so tats it for this wk...i tink i will continue the story a day or two from today...its fun to write! do leave constructive comments!
"The past shall remain buried"-TheNihilist
So heres some story-writing off my mind...its a series that will be updated whenever i like...hope u people who read it like it...do leave comments! Btw, im doing it in a first person view...without any names...im pushing my limits:P
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Untold-The Meeting(The beginning)
Finally a break. All the things to do, all the expectations to meet. I can finally have a well-earned rest and enjoy life as it was portrayed to be. Onto the phone I guess.
Who should I call? I guess the rest of the crew would be good. We could go for a nice dinner at the restaurant with a nice sea view,and maybe go to a bar near it to enjoy some drinks and pool as well. So him,him, oh some female company would be good. So HER. Yes she would enjoy such a evening, i should call another in case she might get awkward with us guys. A "clubber" and a another dude, i would really appreciate it if the girls could come.
A great dinner.I hoped all of them enjoyed it. Lets head to the bar now. First round on me i guess. Her pool skills are actually quite good. I shall have a friendly challenge with her, its been a while since I had quite a match.
I let her win eventually. I'm just another typical guy. It's getting late for the girls, we should probably leave and head back. I do hope she had really enjoyed the evening, oh I should ask them as a whole.
"So was the evening satisfactory? Lets have another round next time!" I said as I looked at them for a feedback.
"Sure" She replied.
ITS 12/12! im at home sitting here blog...tmr hav math test and presentation :(....anyway heres tis wk blogpost!
so monday after class went to find seongy wilfred and keegen to buy seongy's FRED PERRY SHOE..I WAN 1...0.0 ...then we went to bugis to look at some stuff and i broght them to buy some rings!! YEAH NOW GT MORE PPL PEI ME WEAR.....rings are gd accessories...after tat went for dinner at just acia at dhoby xchange...ate till late then went for pool till 11+....which meant me reaching home late....well i had fun!
then its chiong assignments day...wed c++ assign+ project management test...fri software engineering assign...so i didnt do much till fri...
FRI...went to SGTCC...tats toy and comic con....MARVEL..OP...AND A WHOLE LOT OF OTHER CARTOONS I NVR SEE BE4....yeah went to walk around...with fotos...and AGAIN my phone is currently unable to connect to the com...so wait till i change to DHD....sweeeet....back to the topic...i went to walk with Chan Wei and Edwin...Zac out of commission and Matthew's sick/dont wanna go...so yeah we 3 only...stayed thre for a while...then went to eat JUST ACIA again lol...we had a saucy talk :P....it was fun!!!
so featured song of the week : GRENADE by Bruno Mars
Yes the same song...but i tink its a relevant song...since nowadays....its more rampant....well gd luck to everyone going through a sour period and those holding hopes for another...Im always available 24/7 if u ever need some one to be a ear/for advice on future/chu qi tong...
Well tats it for tis wk's post...im gonna end with a quote from The Big Bang Theory a comedy show in america....Can I Have a Virgin Cuba Libre?
"Learn to take things lighter, for the pain will kill you."TheNihilist
Its December!! and now is all the assignments and test! so sian...
I went out ytd with wilfred, keegen and seongy! wl royce and gy followed us along as well but they disapppeared half way... so they went to orchard to buy some clothes...we stood at topman for around an hr cuse wilfred nid to wait for the chgin rm! lol....then we walked around and gt to paragon...had toriQ and starbucks!...the rest met up with us thre...then we went heeren to look at shoes for seongy...i manage to get a black backpack and 2 shirts!...only me and wilfred bought smt...at night we went to din tai fung for dinner...had noodles and xiao long bao!! then went to hmv to buy bruno mars's and my chemical romance's new albums....now im listening to them..
i decided to not put the features title and the lines cuse thres so much to do..
MUSIC of the WEEK: Talking to the moon by Bruno Mars
Yes another song by him....heres the lyrics! Have a listen to it...and its dedicated to WILFRED :D and SOMEONE else i noe :D
I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbors think
I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have
Chorus:
At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon
I'm feeling like I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say
I've gone mad
Yeah
I've gone mad
But they don't know
what I know
Cause when the
sun goes down
someone's talking back
Yeah
They're talking back
Chorus:
At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon
Do you ever hear me calling?
Cause every night
I'm talking to the moon
Still trying to get to you
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon
I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
so enjoy with tis short post...i will try to update wkly!! most prob its on the wkend but do look out for other post!
"Cold, cold world, can you survive it?"-TheNihilist
Is the life we MANEUVER the best we could ?
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Thursday, December 30, 2010 ( 11:03 PM )
Alright im having a bad day today but i feel i should update something before the new year...the next update will come around next monday or tue so enjoy this last post of the year. Oh right and please read the disclaimer thanks
Disclaimer: The series of Untold is purely fictional and is totally made up for anyone whose mind ain't processing right or skipped my first post regarding writing a FICTIONAL story. Any resemblance to living or dead is purely coincidental and any attempt to insult or sue me based on the story will not be entertained and tolerated.
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The Storm(Cold War)
SO why am I here? I should really ask them that. It was suppose to be a date between she and "Mr Popular" and I have to be dragged into it. This is totally absurd by my standards. I shall consult them on why I am dragged into this cold and intense date.
Oh. Apparently both of them has issues to sort out with one another, and I have to be the middle-man to help them. And of cause it concerns me as well. Great. What a perfect afternoon to waste. I could have used the afternoon to hang out with the crew and go for a delicious dinner at the newly opened open-aired restaurant. I guess I have to help them sort out their problems fast if I were to have the evening to myself.
Alright, so the issue is that he thinks she has feelings for another guy, which is most possibly me by his description of "concerning me", and is not committed to the relationship. This is really making me uncomfortable. She, on the other hand, thinks that this is technically not a relationship and should not be treated too serious, and should be treated more like testing out the interaction with one another, a step to decide on whether a relationship is possible. I didn't know she treats him like this, hopefully I am not treated like that.
The atmosphere is getting colder, and it is making me very uncomfortable sitting here looking at both of them.How am I suppose to solve this impartially.On one hand he is one of my better male friends and business partner. On the other, she is someone I have feelings for and had been friends for a considerable amount of time. This is giving me a rather bad headache. I shall trust my gut instinct and tell them what I can concoct within this small time period.
The decision would be that she treats him with more respect and tells him if she is not interested with him. He will have to be less invasive on her privacy and treats her with equal respect. I hope this might help them to iron out the problem, and end this pointless argument.
"Both of you are my good friends and I hope you two understood what I have just said." I followed up with the solution.
"You know what, you are no help at all, you should have persuaded her to give up and come with me, not giving me a useless advice." He said with a rather unhappy look.
"I cannot believe you said that, you disappoint me."She said as she gestured for me to leave.
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Sunday, December 26, 2010 ( 11:29 PM )
The Decision(After effects)
So should I or should I not? It's been several days and I am still stuck with this thought. Damn him, he's so popular yet he still took a liking to her. However, he is after all my friend and business partner, so I am obliged to do him such a favor. What a weird position I am in now. Maybe some red wine to help out with the dilemma. Oh a message from him, seems like he wants to ask her out soon. I guess delaying won't make a difference, I shall give him her number. I hope she don't mind though, I shall drop her a message as well. Tonight's gonna be a long night for me I guess.
Well, its been several days since "Mr Popular" has her number. I should ask him if he had asked her out. "...". Wow, the date seemed to pass very well, I guess I should be happy for them. I shall fish some information from her about "Mr Popular".
She seemed to have a rather good impression of him. I guess this is common as he is rather popular among the ladies. Even more so when he speaks. Time to get more saucy information from her. Her message seemed to come rather late, as if she had been thinking about it rather seriously. However, the message did not specify whether or not she is considering him. It;s time to get serious, time to call her.
"So, after thinking through it, are you and him going on a more serious relationship?" I asked after the rather long greeting we had.
"I don't know, I am torn in between a dilemma now." She said with a rather weird voice.
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Saturday, December 25, 2010 ( 9:37 PM )
Merry Christmas EVERYONE! A update cuse im bored!
so monday and tuesday went to pool with hao weng wilfred and keegen...yeah tats it...went pool LOL...oh btw wilfred and keegen is always late....PLS BE ON TIME THANKS
Thur was suppose to be 6 ach gathering but all of them dont wanna come :(....so its the 4 of us again..went to watch meet the parents:little fockers...the show is funny as hell...worth the ticket money! its a comedy with a heartwarming side...so go watch it i give it 8.5 stars!
ytd is christmas eve! i went out with guo yan, wei lun, zhi hui and bing cheng and went to eat sakae sushi! we wanted to go for sakura buffet but it was full..eventually we went to the cpf building and ate til 9+...then we went for pool again...played till 12+..then went to walk orchard plus starbucks! by the time i reach yishun was 2+...watched bc ate his supper and go home...went to slp at 4....
and now im at my cousins house enjoying a great dinner and thier company... oh and blogging here cuse my cousin is playing...and the adults are talking stuff i aint interested...so yeah
song of the week:倪安東 - 散場的擁抱
yes a chinese song...but its still a nice song...by the same singer as last wk...enjoy the song and the sad mv!
so tats it..oh the tagboard is under attack...help? lol...part 5 of the story coming up!
"Emotions can lead to utter destruction."-TheNihilist
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Thursday, December 23, 2010 ( 1:05 AM )
The Introduce (New storm)
A great La Chic Martinique I am tasting tonight. It's the guys night out, I am glad I get to have this opportunity to have this night out with them. They are great friends and I should someday get to tell them that. Well, I shall go for a round or two of pool with them.
On, "Mr Clubber" is my opponent. I shall pose him a friendly challenge, maybe a round of drink for everyone? "..." A satisfying match, and a free drink as well.
Oh, a message by her. She's coming down now to pick up her keys. One has to wonder how did she get into her apartment yesterday.Apparently, I found it in my car after I left her. She is coming over now, I guess introducing her to the crew would not be a bad idea. Moreover, she already know a few of them.
Oh she's here, time for the good old introduction, "My Girlfriend". "..." . Looking at everyone's shock face just cracks me up. She seems to fit in very well, making it very convenient. Alright, a round of pool with her and "Mr Clubber", another round of drinks on her winning i guess.
Woah, what a night. I cannot believe I had so much drinks and fun. She seems to have a lot of fun as well, right now a bit tipsy as i walk her to the apartment again. Oh she leaves with a room mate. No wonder she could get in yesterday. Well I shall go back to my abode and rest as well.
Oh a phone call. Its "Mr Popular" from the crew. "...." . He's asking me to meet-up right after the party we had. This is weird but I shall agree.
"Hey so what's up? Did you forget to tell me something important about our investments?"I said as I got out of my car.
"No, its just that the girl you brought in today was rather cute, so can you pass me her number? he said with a sneered smile on his face.
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Wednesday, December 22, 2010 ( 12:21 AM )
The Restart(All's new)
Should I drop her a message? This thought went by me for several days now. So should I or should I not? I guess asking her out for a movie should be fine. I should do it now since I might back-out later.
Great. She replied within minutes that she would enjoy a movie. Just the two of us. Lets go check out what movie there is. "...." . A romantic-action movie. At least I would not feel bored watching it with her. Yawning in front of her is a serious blunder to do. I can't wait for the movie.
7. She seems to be on time, coming out of the building. She is rather pretty today, I should take this opportunity to praise her. She seems rather comfortable sitting right beside me as I drive. Tonight just started out to be rather well.
Oh just in time for the movie. I should pick up some popcorn just in case it gets awkward. She seems to have a dislike to it. I guess no popcorn then. Oh, our seats are taken by another couple, I should ask them politely. Oh they are her friends. I cannot believe what a coincidence this was. She seems to be rather flustered as she fixed that we are not a couple to them. I guess she wants to leave her options open.
The movie was rather fine unlike what I have imagined. She seems to be rather calm throughout and is as of now. I should have been more focused inside the theater. Nevertheless, its a good transition to the dinner. The restaurant serves rather appealing steak, I hope she will enjoy that as well.
She ordered a pasta served with codfish. I guess she don't have an appetite for steak. I shall order a steak then. Oh right red wine is a must as well, it will let the dinner to be less tense. She seems to like the food, and seems rather relax as she talk about her daily mundane stuff she is going through. I should try to provide her with constructive comments, maybe pop in a joke or two.
She seemed to have enjoyed the dinner. I shall send her home now since its getting rather late. I do hope I left her a rather good impression and that we could have another movie or dinner again. I guess I should accompany her up to the apartment she lives in. Oh she seems to be tugging me to follow her into the apartment.
"Its getting late, I should not be bothering you or anyone leaving in that apartment.I do hope you enjoyed yourself."-I said as I resist her tugging towards her apartment.
"Alright, I really enjoyed myself today."-She said as she released my hand gently.
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( 12:09 AM )
So heres a very depressing post to log today..
so hao weng ask for pool..so i agree..wilfred came...and Lydia came...with his guy and bro...the depressing thing is not tat i miss her or wat...but is the fact tat i felt totally nothing...same as when my grandfather died...ppl feel sad...regret..maybe even rage...i felt...nothing...not emptiness but nothing...it seems as if my emotions mechanism is back up...i felt like tis...actually till now...not relly feeling anyting...so im depressed tat im actually such a kind of person...practically an empty shell inside...lets have a breakdown
rage-nvr relly felt rage be4, any anger or anyting just gulp down...overtime...thres it just feels "like that lor"...
sadness/grieve- up to now...nvr felt sad as well...above mentioned tat my grandfather died..i felt..nothing...
happiness- i may laugh/enjoy the day...but real happiness has nvr struck me...
well truth to be told...maybe i felt a little of those when i was still close with her..the dropping of the defensive "wall" and the unlocking of the mechanism seems to be able to work up my emotions..but im back up and running...i just feel nothing...suddenly nihilism seems very suited to me...
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Sunday, December 19, 2010 ( 10:18 PM )
The Crumble (Light's Out)
Half a Year just went past with a blink of an eye. I cannot believe how busy I was. Well at least I did enjoy the last couple of times we went out. I enjoyed much of their laughter and the pool. It helped us to understand each other better, be it being a "clubber" or just another girl.
Oh a phone call. "..." . Alright a great timing he called. A break at the chalet and the beach would be very beneficial to me now. I should ask them whether they are attending.It seems like they are rather busy, but they do not want to forgo such a tempting weekend. I shall check up with them a few days later i guess.
They did manage to free up their weekend. Great, I shall ask "Mr.Clubber" to meet up since we live a couple of streets away. I should go and pack some clothes, and of course some beach-wear.
Another few days passed and I managed to survive for this weekend I hoped for. Onto the chalet and the beach. I wanted to drive but he offered me a ride so I shall follow along. Oh shes in the ride as well. What a nice start to the holiday. This could be the ride that I will not forget.
The first day went by with a blast. I can't believe time went past even faster here. The beach was awesome, we had loads of fun playing beach volleyball. The girls were cute too. With the dinner finishing a while now, I can have some peace and quiet to chill out and think. I should grab some sleep and enjoy tomorrow. Maybe after another glass of the great red wine I am holding. Oh she's leaving with her friends. I guess I should go say good night and good bye.
Morning. The sleep was rather comfortable despite squeezing with the rest of the guys. The girls on the other hand should have a rather appealing sleep, since their room are rather empty. Time to grab some breakfast. The nearby cafe should be rather appealing to our tastes, and is relatively affordable as well. Lets see what the others say about it.
We decided and settled for the cafe. As of now, I am finishing my crepe. Its rather exquisite in compare with its price. I should go and talk to the owner and chef of this place, maybe they would consider earning extra cash. Oh shes here. Shes seems a little upset for some reason. Did something happen to her friends? or did she just drank too much? All this speculation and no answer, I should go talk to her.
She managed to pull me aside from the rest, right into a convenience store. She seems a little teary. "...". Oh my, I cannot believe what I have just heard. She must be feeling devastated now. How should I go about comforting her? This is the first time I have been expose to such a tragic event. She should not have went off with her friends. I believed sticking with her right now would be a good idea.
The rest of the afternoon became very weird. I sat there with her, chilling out. The rest on the other hand were too tired to do anything but slack around and play some board games or watch some tv. Right now, we are having dinner at the same place this morning. The view's wonderful and she seems to like it as well. The menu they have for dinner is extensive and the steak tastes perfect. The only thing that is boggling me, however, is what I have heard in the afternoon. I wonder what she is feeling now.
Finishing the dinner, the rest of the crew decided to go to the beach for the wonderful breeze. I sat by on the cooling sand, with a bottle of wine by my side. She came by and sat beside me.
"Some wine and a nice breeze to calm down? Are you feeling alright?" I asked while holding the wine glass.
"With you, I should be fine."She said, almost tearing up her eyes.
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( 12:34 AM )
12.34! As i started to write tis blog post...so heres wat happened this wk!
TUESDAY! Its CHAN WEI's Birthday! yay! celebration!so we went out after our morning classes...went to have dinner at sakae in ION orchard with edwin,zac matthew,hong jie and fu kuan...everyone was there! after tat we went on a L.A.N spree..played call of duty black ops and cs for hrs...erm round 2+ hrs....at night we went to just acia to camp! we were too full for dinner so we ordered the dumpling set....then enjoyed the drinks and ice-cream...beside us was another guy having his bdae! LOL wat timing! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN CHAN WEI!
thur, i went to watch tron:legacy with bing cheng, zi zhao,wei lun, royce,heng le and guo yan....we went to eat manhattan be4 we went for the movies...the show was not bad...great concept...nice effects...just a little geeky since its based on a game...but with Olivia Wilde, everyting is less geeky :p...its a movie tats worth its money but not relly extrodinary...i guess my hopes were too high? i give it 7.5 /10 stars!
ytd i went to hav dinner with chan wei and edwin at orchard...walked around, had an eye feast and ate at subway...was a typical friday...the lights at orchard are sweet though...
song of the week:倪安東 - Sorry That I Loved You
yes a chinese singer, i rarely listen to chinese singers but this song caught my attention...its a sad song...but its very meaningful as well...so listen to it..
so tats it for this wk...i tink i will continue the story a day or two from today...its fun to write! do leave constructive comments!
"The past shall remain buried"-TheNihilist
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Saturday, December 18, 2010 ( 1:31 AM )
So heres some story-writing off my mind...its a series that will be updated whenever i like...hope u people who read it like it...do leave comments! Btw, im doing it in a first person view...without any names...im pushing my limits:P
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Finally a break. All the things to do, all the expectations to meet. I can finally have a well-earned rest and enjoy life as it was portrayed to be. Onto the phone I guess.
Who should I call? I guess the rest of the crew would be good. We could go for a nice dinner at the restaurant with a nice sea view,and maybe go to a bar near it to enjoy some drinks and pool as well. So him,him, oh some female company would be good. So HER. Yes she would enjoy such a evening, i should call another in case she might get awkward with us guys. A "clubber" and a another dude, i would really appreciate it if the girls could come.
A great dinner.I hoped all of them enjoyed it. Lets head to the bar now. First round on me i guess. Her pool skills are actually quite good. I shall have a friendly challenge with her, its been a while since I had quite a match.
I let her win eventually. I'm just another typical guy. It's getting late for the girls, we should probably leave and head back. I do hope she had really enjoyed the evening, oh I should ask them as a whole.
"So was the evening satisfactory? Lets have another round next time!" I said as I looked at them for a feedback.
"Sure" She replied.
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Sunday, December 12, 2010 ( 9:08 PM )
ITS 12/12! im at home sitting here blog...tmr hav math test and presentation :(....anyway heres tis wk blogpost!
so monday after class went to find seongy wilfred and keegen to buy seongy's FRED PERRY SHOE..I WAN 1...0.0 ...then we went to bugis to look at some stuff and i broght them to buy some rings!! YEAH NOW GT MORE PPL PEI ME WEAR.....rings are gd accessories...after tat went for dinner at just acia at dhoby xchange...ate till late then went for pool till 11+....which meant me reaching home late....well i had fun!
then its chiong assignments day...wed c++ assign+ project management test...fri software engineering assign...so i didnt do much till fri...
FRI...went to SGTCC...tats toy and comic con....MARVEL..OP...AND A WHOLE LOT OF OTHER CARTOONS I NVR SEE BE4....yeah went to walk around...with fotos...and AGAIN my phone is currently unable to connect to the com...so wait till i change to DHD....sweeeet....back to the topic...i went to walk with Chan Wei and Edwin...Zac out of commission and Matthew's sick/dont wanna go...so yeah we 3 only...stayed thre for a while...then went to eat JUST ACIA again lol...we had a saucy talk :P....it was fun!!!
so featured song of the week : GRENADE by Bruno Mars
Yes the same song...but i tink its a relevant song...since nowadays....its more rampant....well gd luck to everyone going through a sour period and those holding hopes for another...Im always available 24/7 if u ever need some one to be a ear/for advice on future/chu qi tong...
Well tats it for tis wk's post...im gonna end with a quote from The Big Bang Theory a comedy show in america....Can I Have a Virgin Cuba Libre?
"Learn to take things lighter, for the pain will kill you."TheNihilist
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Saturday, December 04, 2010 ( 1:22 PM )
Its December!! and now is all the assignments and test! so sian...
I went out ytd with wilfred, keegen and seongy! wl royce and gy followed us along as well but they disapppeared half way... so they went to orchard to buy some clothes...we stood at topman for around an hr cuse wilfred nid to wait for the chgin rm! lol....then we walked around and gt to paragon...had toriQ and starbucks!...the rest met up with us thre...then we went heeren to look at shoes for seongy...i manage to get a black backpack and 2 shirts!...only me and wilfred bought smt...at night we went to din tai fung for dinner...had noodles and xiao long bao!! then went to hmv to buy bruno mars's and my chemical romance's new albums....now im listening to them..
i decided to not put the features title and the lines cuse thres so much to do..
MUSIC of the WEEK: Talking to the moon by Bruno Mars
Yes another song by him....heres the lyrics! Have a listen to it...and its dedicated to WILFRED :D and SOMEONE else i noe :D
I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbors think
I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I have
Chorus:
At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon
I'm feeling like I'm famous
The talk of the town
They say
I've gone mad
Yeah
I've gone mad
But they don't know
what I know
Cause when the
sun goes down
someone's talking back
Yeah
They're talking back
Chorus:
At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the Moon
Try to get to You
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon
Do you ever hear me calling?
Cause every night
I'm talking to the moon
Still trying to get to you
In hopes you're on
the other side
Talking to me too
Or am I a fool
who sits alone
Talking to the moon
I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
so enjoy with tis short post...i will try to update wkly!! most prob its on the wkend but do look out for other post!
"Cold, cold world, can you survive it?"-TheNihilist
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